I wear my heart on my sleeve.

I'm not going to go into detail about what is going on in my life right now. If you know me, you know the truth. That is, if I trust you, you know the truth. Anything I have said or done because of what I'm going through has, in fact, been the truth. I have no reason to lie. I have no reason to play games. I'm an adult. I'm a grown woman with two children, whom I put first. No one comes before them. Anything I do, is to better myself and my daughters. Not only that, anything that I do is to set a good example for my girls. I want them to see a mature, confident, independant woman, who does what she has to, no matter what the cost, for her family. I want them to be raised with respect for not only others, but for themselves. So, all I have to say is, if you haven't heard what's going on straight from my mouth (or fingertips if we are conversing via facebook) then you're not hearing the truth. I have nothing to hide, so I'm telling it like it is. I will tell you anything I've done wrong, faster than anyone else will. However, when something isn't completely my fault, I will not take the blame. So, if you want to know the truth, come to me. Don't assume. You know what they say about assuming. It makes a ___ out of ___ and ____. Fill in the blanks.


Now, that is off of my chest, I just have to say that I'm compeltely blessed to have the family and friends that I have. My family has been incredibly supportive and without them, I would be up the creek without a paddle, so to speak. My friends have surprised me. It's funny because I thought I knew who would have my back; and I was 100% WRONG in some cases. I've had people refuse to come back in my life at the time I need them most. I've had people I thought I could count on forever turn their back on me completely and betray me. Yet, I've had people I haven't talked to in years, come and tell me that they love me and are here for me through anything. Also, I have some friends I've had the entire time who have stuck by me. These are the people who know the truth. These people know me. These people, are family to me now. Between my daughters, my real family, and these few amazing friends...I'm the luckiest girl in the world.

I know that anytime I need someone to talk to, someone is ALWAYS going to be there. If I need someone to make me laugh, I ALWAYS have someone who is going to be there to make me laugh. I know that if I start doubting myself and my strength, there is ALWAYS going to be someone there who has my back; who believes in me; who will always be there for me and my girls through whatever life throws our way.

It's true, too, sometimes you never really know someone. You never know who someone is. You could know them your entire life, be married to them, be related to them, be best friends for a long time; and never really know someone. However, I want to assure everyone reading this; all of my friends that you really know me. I don't see the point in hiding parts of myself from people and being someone I'm not. What you see is what you get with me. Here and there I've lost sight of that part of me, but I've never failed to show the real me to any of my friends. Anything I confide in you, anything I tell you, is the truth. I'm not saying this to sway people to be on my side. If you are, you are. If you aren't, you aren't. I'm saying this to assure people that I am who I say I am. I am the mom I appear to be. I am the daughter and friend and sister I appear to be. I was the wife that I appeared to be. I'm the photographer and writer I appear to be. I'm the happy girl that I appear to be. I wear my heart on my sleeve.

I'm going to get past this, with the approval of people or without it. I'm going to start school, I'm going to finish school. I'm going to hopefully further my education after that. I'm going to be there for my girls. I'm going to get us a nice house. I'm going to raise them the best way any mother could raise her children. I may not have a "whole" family to some people; but to me I do. I have my girls. That's all I need. But luckily, the three of us have even more support than just the love and support of each other.

And I thank God every night for that.